Where's my magic wand?

Some days, sometimes I wish I had some kinda magic wand for things. Lately my mind has been whirling with to do lists and wants, but no time or energy(or even money) to do something about it. I really want to decorate my kitchen, I know it's a big project and that it'll take more time and money than I have right now, but it's the one thing that I know I would enjoy doing and that I would feel great accomplishment from. I know what I want to do, I know what I need to do to get it done, but finding the time and money to do it all is where I am lacking. Money... that's the easy part of the two. I can always save my pennies for the paint and the brushes and all the other things it will take to get my kitchen to where I dream of it being. But finding the time is where it is sooo hard. I know I have time, I watch tv, I am lazy sometimes, but I can't find the bulk amount of time that I will need to get the kitchen prepared and ready to start and actually do the work to finish it. I just wish there was some magic wand that i could swing and swish to make my kitchen as freakin amazing as I see it in my head!

Since I'm wishing for wands to fix things, I wish I had one that would magically lift some weight off my chest... and my stomach... and my legs... and everywhere else too. I have been trying to work so so hard to loose weight. Early morning workouts that make the rest of my days seem so so long and leave me so tired and drained plus trying to stick to a diet that excludes some of my favorite foods... no pasta!! Are you serious!?!?!? Not fun!! I know that it is my choice and that I'm doing it for myself, but I also know that it's not easy and it's not working the way that I thought it would before I started this adventure to better my physical appearance. I never thought that it would be easy, I just never thought it would be SO HARD!! I know that on Biggest Loser they workout ALL THE TIME and have people that help them learn about the food they need to eat, but I hoped for a better outcome then I'm seeing. I know it hasn't been very long since I've started and I know that I could be more strict with myself, but I also know that I'm 24 years old and don't want to turn into the type of person that's no fun to hang out with because they are so obsessed with nutrition and exercise. I just wish for the wand... that magic helper to whisk off the pounds!!

A good weather fairy would be nice too! I can't wait until the day I can take my babies to the park and play in the nice sunshine like I enjoyed so much last summer. I want to get some exercise outside!! I want to go on walks and even try some hikes!! But with the weather that we have now, there is no way I'm willing to go anywhere outside unless it's from my warm car to the warm store or my warm house.

I know it's really not helping to wish for these things that I know won't happen overnight, but I tell you what, my discouragement is not helping them get done either. Ah... like my mom always said "wish in one hand, shit in the other and see which one fills up faster". I'm just sick of having to weed through the shit to make the wishes come true...

Making MY house... OUR home!!

So I have been determined to get our house clean and looking good for so so long, finally last week I made James help me hang up all the picture frames I had collected and I started the process of cleaning everything. I did pretty well, but we didn't have any pictures to go in the frames! Of course I've taken tons and tons of pictures in the year and a half (YEAH THAT LONG!!!) that we've been together, but I've never had them printed out or taken them off the camera. So I decided that since the frames all around my house had people in them that I didn't know, and frankly looked a little too happy to be real people, I would take the time to order some photo prints online!! I was totally excited today when I got to go pick them up! It was so so fun to actually get to hold on to the pictures and remember those times. When we got home, I decided what pictures went where and filled all the frames. When I was done I took a look around our living room and my heart was so so full of love!! Just seeing all of the pictures up on the wall, with the smiles and memories of my time with James, was like taking a huge breath of the most comforting smell, or seeing the prettiest sunset in the sky. I know now, just like the nails that hold our pictures to the wall, our love is strong enough to hold up our memories and to create a life time full of more... I'm going to have to buy alot more frames! :o)